This has been one interesting week. I’m more calmer today than I was earlier this week when I posted my last entry. Yesterday was a turning point for me. Today, however, I hurt.
What happened last weekend. I realized I’ve been smoking almost two packs of cigarettes per day since Friday. When I went to the store on Sunday to buy more, I hadn’t known what I was doing until I bought more cigarettes and I started mentally counting the little buggers. Sunday night I had the dream that I’m not sure was a dream or not, or whatever. I couldn’t move my body for the shooting pain going down my arm. Yet, when I came fully awake my arm was aching and wasn’t in this enormous pain.
I don’t know what the hell happened but by Monday morning, I went from over 20 cigarettes to three per day. I walked around in a daze for the next couple of days, while my body is going through this metamorphosis and my mind is spacey as hell. I felt as though I was operating outside of my body.
Today, my mind is lucid. I freaking hurt, though. My stomach has been cramping up. My throat feels closed up. It hasn’t stop me from complaining to anyone listening that I wanted a cigarette. I know I can’t go cold turkey but I’m determined to stop smoking. Tomorrow, I’m going to go without.
I quit almost 2 years ago. I found the nicotine patch REALLY helped.
You can do it! Jake would want you to! ;D
-Joan
Maybe your stomach cramps and your closed-up throat have nothing to do with quitting smoking but with the fact that you might come down with a germ or two?
Anyway, I will keep my fingers crossed that one day you will be able to do without ciggies. You are one very determined lady and so you can do it, I have no doubt.
*hugs* Right there with you. Having some ups and downs, but I’m – for the first time – really serious about quitting. And yes, cold turkey.
You can do it!
Mh, people used to smoke a lot on the dig this summer. We were a group of four non-smokers, and 15 smokers. And they smoked about two cartons of cigarettes per week. (Very, very cheap syrian cigarettes) Of course they had to cut back here in Germany, but actually quit just like that, saying ‘I only smoke on excavations’.
So, I know it’s not the most advisable way to quit, but if you what to to it that way, you can. And there are always gums and plasters to help you through it.
You should talk to![[info]](http://stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif)
829creatch! She quit smoking about a year and a half ago and I know she’d be up for talking about strategies and support. 
Good luck with it!